treasure every hug u received

Monday, March 29, 2004
hey pepols!!! wassup!i know itz been quite awhile mann... you know i'm busy with loads of stuffs rite.. so be patient ya.. haha.. anyway, i've got quite q bit to tell you guys.. hmmm.. letz start from last friday... i had my student council investiture and now i'm officially NOT a council member... i mean, i've step down from all my crappie duties..(like as if i ever did my duties).. after the whole thingy, i went home.. lehana went TP and geraldine went to church and i dint want to go anywhere.. ok datz on friday.... saturday: i had the stupid chinese oral thing.. yucks! i guess i failed.. well, who cares! okok.. after dat, went out with mann.. we were laughing all day marnz! we laughed abt everything dat we saw and i was so afraid dat i mite bum into some ppl dat i dun wanna see and gladly i dint.. i saw hwee lu and this boyfriend of hers and tong jue... we were watching the same movie.. (dirty dancing 2) den we saw brenda in the cinema with mei wei.. after dat, when we came out of the theatre, we met joe! mann wanted to chill with them but i dint really want cuz i feel so out of place.. den we headed home.. we wanted to get home by 830 and i guess mann did but i reached home at 850 cuz i gotta get some stuff for my sis.. when i reached home, i switched on the tv and..... wat a turn off man... the contestants for the miss singapore expose was so ewwww.. yuckes! den.. i went on to watch 'Are you Hot!'.. Chantile and Travis is sooooo hot!! wow! haha... mann and i was watching the same show.. haha.. you guys must be thinking dat deres something betwn us huh.... dun worry.. there's NOTHING!! we are just very close friends datz all.. yeaps.. datz for sat.. and for sunday, basically i was just freaking slacking arnd.. i woke up at wat? 1.. haha.. pig manz.. after dat, i went back to sleep at 3 plus after having my lunch.. woke up ate my dinner and went to watch the darrn and evelyn's wedding thingy.. he was soooosh shweet!! gosh.. i really miss him*.. okok.. stop it nat! cmon.. you got a life to live!! after dat, went to study abit.. and tada.. i went to sleep again.. wanted to watch the match betwn arsernal and manU but sigh.. too lazy.. but in the end i slept at 2!! cldnt get to sleep!!!! argh! tossing ang turning.. opps.. i guess this is way toooo much details... okok i shall put a full stop to this. ohoh.. i cant wait for this sat... i'm gonna drag mann out to go shopping!!!!!!! haha.. cant wait! ok den.. cheerios! mwacks!

Nat let go on 9:13 AM

* * *

Sunday, March 21, 2004
heyloos! well.. how was your hols?? my was the most boring-est holiday i've ever had marnz!.. actualli.. come to think of it, itz not dat bad either.. haha.. cant make up my mind.. anyway, i was practically out everyday.. went to the body world exhibition yest with lehana and we were joking abt everything in there.. we had FUN!!! it feels so good when you're really enjoying yourself.. after dat, met huey si and we went for dinner.. she bought the same shades as me!! hehe.. yipee! she look freakin' cool with it marnz... you go gurlie! after dat, we went to take piczies!! we took i think at least 50 to 60 picz altogether.. gosh.. we were so tired posing and all after dat.. haha.. but we had fun.. reached home at 11.. talked cork with my mum, dad, sis and grandma... haha... laughed so much... den all thanks to my idea, we went to lao pa sat to eat at arnd 0130hrs.. we wanted to go serangoon gardens chomp chomp but the hawker centre is closed for renovation or something.. sigh.. thought i cld try my luck to see if he* was there.. nvmz... reached home arnd 0245 and i finally sleep at 3 plus.. woke up at 1345 this afternoon.. haha.. den mann asked me if i wanted to join him over at east coast but i cldnt, needa go out with my mum.. sigh.. sorry mann.. another time ya.. ok den.. i've gotta go peeps!! till the next time.. you are the best!

Nat let go on 4:12 PM

* * *

Thursday, March 18, 2004
been slacking the whole day.. went sentosa yest and now i'm all red.. the hols are gonna be over soon and itz time for all of us to really get down to work.. hmm.. caught up with mann a few days ago.. talked, laughed and just chill.. got to know a couple of things abt him*.. sigh.. sometimes i really wonder why did i fall for him.. rite.. oh yes! chatted with cyrene yest.. she also told me a number of stuff.. feel so sad for him, dint know his impression to ppl was dat bad.. sobs sobs.. we had so much fun chattin.. you go gurl!! i wanna get out of here!!! get to someplace where i can erase everything and start afresh.. i feel like i'm living in the past rather den the present..**wth** argh! ok.. letz drop it! oh oh.. did i tell you.. i went shoppin yest too!! heesh.. i just love it when i get to shop.. itz a gal's paradise! itz definitely MY PARADISE!! i bought heels, and a cap.. heesh.. got myself a roxy wallet a few days back(sorry timo). i'm gonna get this converse shoes tmr.. cant wait!! well den.. i guess i better get goin.. peace out! miss you*

Nat let go on 3:35 PM

* * *

Tuesday, March 16, 2004
heyloos!! itz been wat? a month ever since i last post an entry huh.. sorry ya.. been busy and all.. well, i think i shld update you guys.. okok... i'm SINGLE!! hmm.. i'm actually kinda happie dat i'm a free bird now.. but i still do miss him every now and then.. hmm.. i guess i'll be much happier now then before.. dun think i want to get into another relationship soon.. so.. sorry to the guys out there ya.. heesh.. anyway, now dat i'm free, i have more time for my friends, family and of cuz my studies!! the past week has been hell for me but with all the ppl arnd me, like lehana, huey si, gerri, clara, idayu, sehar and many more others who have helped me in a way or another.. i love you guys.. thinking back, i lost a perfect friendship with someone because of him and i find it so freaking dumb of me.. i mean, he was always there for me and all and i did dat to him.. sigh.. i really regretted all this... but wat is done is done..

to that someone(you know who you are): i'm really sorry for everything.. hope one day, we'll be on good terms and return to normal.. haha.. sounds like we're abnormal.. heez..

to him* hey!! thanks for messing my life.. you've hurt me not once, not twice, but thrice.. itz enuf.. you made me lose a friendship, and i almost lose one of my close friend.. wat more do you want.. i'm really angry with you.. why the hell have you got to do that.. i mean, we were fine and one f**king day, you said dat we shld give ourselves a break.. when i first heard it, i was like... wat the f**k do you want.. wat you said and wat you're doin is totally 2 different thing.. i really want to believe wat you said but your actions are telling me something else.. itz very difficult to trust you again.. if this is how you treat gals, itz f**king wrong.. do you think dat we're here for you to play arnd with? hell NO!!! you got your thing to get gals and unfortunately, i've fallen for your stupid crap.. you're very good with your words and to twist everything arnd but dun take us as fools you bloody arsehole! if you're too bored and need to find something to play, why dun you go to the clubs and get one.. you're always saying how you get the gals in the da clubs and all so why dun you just go look for them and screw everyone of them.. you can have different 'taste' everyday.. i'm glad dat idayu dint go with you.. otherwise she will be as hurt as i am now.. you're a very nice and sweet guy but you can be f**king cunning if you want to.. you can throw your f**king temper but i cant, you can go out with your friends and say you cant go out with me but when i do it, you get angry.. wassup with you.. you are just too unpredictable.. anyway, thank you once again for everything.. may god bless and take care always.. miss you!

ps://sorry for the vulgarities..

Nat let go on 11:29 AM

* * *